I never thought this would happen, but here we go: A no make-up picture! Huray! But who feels for putting on make-up at 9pm with his pj’s on – yes on a Saturday night and I love it – and so many thoughts to tackle? Not me!
Due to recent events or better say thoughts, I realized that it was that time again: time to change! It is save to say that I let myself go over the last months. My finals were enough to keep me busy. Step by step I slipped more and more into bad habits, building up old habits – that I’ve been so proud of breaking over the last two years. I always had an excuse “Oh, I am so stressed of my finals, I can eat that cake/watch this TV show/not blog today/don’t go for a run”. For that moment it was completely okay with me. I didn’t realize that I was falling back into bad habits, reaching the peak after my bf went to Norway for two months. Suddenly I was home alone, forced to entertain myself 24/7, something I wasn’t used to anymore.
Now, I can’t say that I am unhappy, but I did loose my spirit (as my bf calls it) and stopped loving myself, because I am doing things I dislike such as TV binge watching. In my eyes it is one of the worst habits our generation his facing. I don’t mean watching lots of TV once in a while, I mean watching endless hours of TV because of being bored or to scared to face your own life/thoughts. So doing stuff that I actually disapprove off could only lead me to stop loving myself. But life as proven me: only if I love myself, I can love others and embrace their love and happiness.
Lucky me, November just started today. So what better way to turn this into a monthly goal! Love yourself before you love others. How? I did think off a few ideas:
It is no secret, sport does the trick. It releases endorphins, makes you happy and feeling good about yourself. So, sport needs to be included into my weekly routine. Starting tomorrow with a run. Promised!
I’ve been meaning to share my book wish list with you for over a month…so far still no post. But my list is long and I want to start to tackle it down. Already, I have three books on my bedside table: The Secret, Daily Routines and The Happiness Project (Yes, I still haven’t finished it).
No Binge TV
I already told you how much I dislike it. Actually I see it as a waist of time. Valuable time that can be used to create amazing things. No more of it!
Apparently I turned from someone thinking “I am not a creative person” into an artist – feels weird to say so, but I do think blogging is an art, isn’t it? During my recent break from blogging and also this week with so much work and no time spend creating, I finally allowed myself to say it out loud: Creating makes me happy and not doing so makes me miss a big piece off myself.
No creating=not the real me.
As it goes with binge TV, I end up NOT listening to myself at all! Over the last weeks, I often found myself turning my lights off at night only to lay there, restless with so many thoughts, that had been pushed off while I lost track in front of the TV. No fun.
I hope both those two will help me to listen&think. Back in 2012 I’ve been through a tough time and I still remember my best friend giving me the advice to write my thoughts down. Up to that point, I’ve always wanted to be a journal-writer. It had been a wish during my whole childhood – no idea why. But I’ve never done it, because I didn’t like my hand writing, which disturbed my sense off “journal perfection” – I know, sounds a little stupid. After my friend gave me her advice, I gave it another try – a little older and a lot wiser. And guess what, so far I filled at least six journals. The last year though I’ve usually only turned to my journal in a bad time. But why not write in good times too? So back to the beginning, a few lines each night.
As you probably know, I highly think of mediation, I just still didn’t make a routine out of it. Which is going to change, starting right now.
Luckily I am not alone in this one: Kristin from eattrainlove.com started a Clean Eating Challenge today. 30 days of clean healthy food with at least one home cooked meal a day. Inspiring each other under #CCC. I am in.
(Note: Her post is in german, but if you are interested let me know and I will write a separate post about it. I might do it anyway : )
Oh my friends, I have goals. Lot’s of them. Some reaching so high, I would probably get all dizzy reaching them. BUT I want to reach them and I will! No more “I am not god enough/pretty enough/smart enough”, no more being scared, no more thinking what others say (Hello, no make-up selfie!). Oh, yes, I am on!
Meeting With Myself
This idea is pretty much bundling all the previous ones. I want to have a meeting with myself. Simply sitting down or going on a walk with nothing left as myself. Why do I have coffee dates with my friends, but not with myself? I just had one today (which brought me to this post) and I realized it again: It all comes from inside of us! The power, the happiness, the courage. It is all in us. But we have to listen!
Well my friends, this has been a somehow very personal and urgent post, but I hope I could inspire you. Maybe you are feeling off as well and find some of the ideas helpful. Or if you are super happy with your life& yourself right now, maybe you have some inspiration to share? Please feel free to leave a comment below or reach me via email@example.com
Have a great Sunday.
Lot’s of LOVE.